To know, or not to know.

As you get older, you are sometimes faced with more responsibility. As you progress in a company, you are sometimes burdened with the inner workings of the company, and information is passed on to you, sometimes for your benefit, sometimes to keep you informed. Sometimes, you wish you did not get passed some of this information.

Such is the case now. I have been with my company for almost 8 full years now. While I am not a partner, I am given information that is not shared with other employees. right about now, i wish I did not know, what I know now. I can see the writing on the proverbial wall, (as much as I hate to use that saying) and I know that the economic times that we are faced with have a major impact on our workload in the architectural profession. We are running out of work. Well, more so, we have nearly run out of work, period. Present tense. And as such, some job cuts might have to happen for the first time in the companies 11 years. 2 cuts. Not my job, and for that I am extremely grateful and thankful. But two other people will be out of work, in about 2 weeks time. One of them, probably should have never been hired in the first place, and the loss their does not bother me. The other person, is the troubling thing for me. her personality fits in so well with our office. She is a good worker, competent, and does not need a lot of supervision. I have been working alongside her for the last month on a project. And she has no idea. None. She makes comments about "we will work that out in a couple weeks at the next stage of the project", and knowing what I know, it is hard to stand there and have a conversation. I will be disappointed the day she leaves. She has only been with the company for 6 months. She was laid off by her previous employer. And now she gets to go through it again.

Sometimes, I think it would be better to not know. Maybe the ostrich has it right, when it hits the fan, get low, stick your head in the sand.